At this point in time I’m having serious doubts about my college life.  Should I continue with my pre med track or should I just go into full blown ministry?  I’m doing fine in my classes, and I’m pretty sure that medical school shouldnt be a problem for me, but I’m not enjoying any of it.  The sciences are a struggle, as they have been in high school.  I mean, I’m getting pretty good at it, but unless something changes, I don’t think I can stand this for another 9 years.  It’s either relying on both my God given knowledge and faith to heal people and go do medical missions, or I decide to major in Bible and Theology/Christian Education and Formation and rely on my faith and the Holy Spirit to heal people.  I don’t know.  I sometimes feel like I’m just feeling lazy with all my classes.  And if there’s a time to decide, its now.  If i continue, I have to declare a major and follow it through.  

pray for me?

tiffciao:

hopefully you see this after i sign off instead of while we’re talking… 
but being so blessed by our spiritual conversation right now!
<3

love you! but love God more :] 

oh man love you too! we’re totally listening to those songs on the way to ihopeg :]

1) Someone took off their jacket and put it under my head to use as a pillow during BITH class

2) The same person grabbed my notebook and took two sets of notes- one for me, one for him

3) Friends wrote a get well soon card while I was sick

4) Friends had lunch arranged for me on my desk by the time I woke up 

5) Friends prayed for me.

<3 Wheaton 

Gah I find that I miss my bctc buddies the most here at Wheaton.  So basically if I follow you, I miss you. a lot. LOVE YOU GUYS

<3

i want to ask God why He allows poverty, famine, and injustice in the world when He could do something about it, but I’m afraid He might just ask me the same question.

on friday i went to do night homeless outreach with a couple of others on the streets of chicago. when we asked one of my close friends here what he wanted to do for his birthday, this is what he suggested.  

and today, along with every other saturday, i go to chinatown to tutor chinese immigrants.  I slipped in some prime Jesus info into their worksheets.  like a boss.  

i love wheaton.  HOW IS GOD SOOO GOOOODD!? love ya.

it really does.  but im not going to lay weak anymore. I’m going to walk strong with God.

It’s my birthday!! and it’s 9/2!! so my bible verse is Isaiah 9:2 The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned. 

WE ARE THE LIGHT, THE CITY ON THE HILLTOP!

Monday was truly a blessing. We got up in the morning, and half of the letterly and franklin teams went to The Garden.  I was on brick stacking duty with Brian Wan when I had two minor epiphanies (one of which did not come from me).  While we formed an assembly line passing down broken brick by broken brick to form a patio, we thought of the people we were there to minister to.  Even though talking to them, praying for them, and handing them a sandwich may not appear to do anything, God is allowing each broken brick/person to be touched by His servants until it reaches the place it needs to be.  I also remembered how in previous years how I hated The Garden.  It was a dump. There would be junk and excrement all over, and every time I worked there I felt like I was in the movie Holes (or the book if you prefer. I prefer movie because Stanley Yelnats was skinny in the movie. but i digress).  But this year, it was the only place I was able to find peace (other than sleeping with Chris Hu).  It was like the drug addicts, prostitutes, and homeless people on Kensington.  Although they were messy, God wants them to be beautiful and at peace again.

Outreach was the most amazing thing. I met this guy named Hector who reminded me of myself.  He was a Christian, but an alcoholic.  He told me that no matter how hard he tried, he kept falling back into sin.  Even though an entire church was supporting him (he became a deacon 7 years back when he was clean), he just didn’t have the strength to go sober. He would read a chapter of proverbs every night and psalms every morning. So I prayed for him and we talked.  So here’s the crazy thing.  For a while now all my prayers have been themed around light and darkness. Like wanting to be God’s city on the hill, or the lamp on the stand.  Right before ICM, God has been asking me to read 2 Corinthians 4:1-6.  I would find all the pages in my bible bent to that specific page every time I took it out of my backpack, and so many times the AC would just blow the pages to 2 Corinthians 4.  And so apparently 15 minutes before we arrived at the corner, there was a shooting on that very corner. When we arrived the light was fading and it was getting darker and darker.  So out of the blue when talking to Hector, he said, “you know, when you guys came it was so dark. but after you guys arrived and started praying and singing, all these lights turned on and I feel so at peace.” And I was blown away. There was not a doubt in my mind God was speaking to me. I was so taken aback I needed two other people to help me pray to say thanks.  

Oh and something else hilarious happened with the intern Eric Foster. But thats only funny out loud. So I’ll leave it at that.

Prayer Requests (minus a few sensitive ones):

For Chris Chen’s grandfather to become saved

For mine too.

Hector, who needs strength from God

A spiritual breakthrough

Unity

Protection from evil

Matthew 5:14-1614 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

2 Corinthians 4:5-6 For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants [2] for Jesus’ sake. 6 For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.